I’m in a 3-year relationship with confusion from the beginning. He loves me so much, he loves me more than his life, he could do anything for me, wherever i go he will follow me even in places oceans apart from our country. He is an ideal man, not a perfect but a man who will never fail you. But sometimes you can’t find the right answer whether to leave him or not. Through out the 3 years, i was confused, thinking that there’s someone better than him (but none), i don’t love him that much and i was thinking of learning to love him one day as much as he loves me if i will stay. I was being unfair and selfish, that i know if one day i will meet another guy, i can just dump and leave him but for now, i was really afraid to decide that in the end, i will regret or i will make a wrong decision. I’m so upset, i don’t wanna hurt him but i know i am actually hurting him for not being true to myself and not being honest to him.😭😭😭
To be honest, it seems you love the feeling of being loved, not the person who is loving you. That’s the source of all the confusion. I have a friend who got married with a man who loves her very much, but she doesn’t love. She manages to stay in the marriage. She hasn’t learned to love her husband, but she learned to love the way of life with her husband and family. For some people, they can “learn” to stay in a relationship (but that doesn’t mean learning to love their spouse). But I don’t think I can ever learn to love someone I don’t love. I’d rather stay single than to pretend I love someone.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts. Last year i broke up with him, i tried to be alone or a month but i don’t know why i began to miss being with him so i decided to go back to him. At first, he’s hesitant coz he knows that i can easily leave him again so i was challenged that time and i did everythin to win him back. But when everything backs to normal, there is no challenge anymore and now, i am confused again.